Put off today, what you can do tomorrow

So, I have been meaning to write a letter to my ex so I can get everything off my chest and move forward at least giving myself closure. I have meant to blog about some of my experiences with him and how they affected my weight and hindered my weight loss but every time I think about it I want to crawl into the fetal position close my eyes and cry. I'm scared that the minute I let even a tiny bit of those emotions out that I wont be able to turn them off. So I'm at home now, In my comfy bed watching a lil TV, attempting to clear out my DVR and I know I need this closure and I need to get some of this off of my chest but alas, I am just not ready to open that door because once I do I don't know that I will be able to shut it. So, I will wait until tomorrow and see if I have the strength to do so then.